was in the hospital. Had an infection in a rather sensitive area, and
that's all I want to say about it.
It was quite the ordeal, and it involved a lot of pain, but thankfully
right now I'm on the mend. However, during my hospital stay, I did
notice one thing: spirituality and meditation were the furthest things
from my mind. No, I wasn't cursing God or blaming God or anything like
that, I just...couldn't think of God. It seemed as if I had more
pressing things to worry about, which I guess in a way I did; I had to
get better after all. Still, my inattention to spirituality during
that period may alarm some...it startled me, at least.
I have tried to make up for it by meditation after I got home. Just
today I chanted "Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha" for about 30 minutes, a new
record for me, I think. Still, I'm not sure if my inattention to
spirituality during my hospital stay was good or bad. I didn't turn to
faith to heal me, nor did I curse faith...I'm just not sure what to
make of it. Is this a healthy perspective, or was I wrong to not think
of faith during my ordeal?