Saturday, November 5, 2011

Keeping it Real...So to Speak

It's been a while, I know. This time, though, I have a valid excuse: I
was in the hospital. Had an infection in a rather sensitive area, and
that's all I want to say about it.

It was quite the ordeal, and it involved a lot of pain, but thankfully
right now I'm on the mend. However, during my hospital stay, I did
notice one thing: spirituality and meditation were the furthest things
from my mind. No, I wasn't cursing God or blaming God or anything like
that, I just...couldn't think of God. It seemed as if I had more
pressing things to worry about, which I guess in a way I did; I had to
get better after all. Still, my inattention to spirituality during
that period may alarm startled me, at least.

I have tried to make up for it by meditation after I got home. Just
today I chanted "Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha" for about 30 minutes, a new
record for me, I think. Still, I'm not sure if my inattention to
spirituality during my hospital stay was good or bad. I didn't turn to
faith to heal me, nor did I curse faith...I'm just not sure what to
make of it. Is this a healthy perspective, or was I wrong to not think
of faith during my ordeal?

1 comment:

  1. I didn't know you were in hospital, but you're okay now, right? *hugs*
    I think your spiritual journey is still long, and hope that you don't beat yourself over(much) for not thinking of anything beyond the pain of your experience. At church yesterday, we were told that we can still concentrate on mundane things, even as we wait for God's I making sense?

    ~Nik at her most inarticulate >.<