Thursday, October 20, 2011

Spiritual ADD

(ADD from the post title in this case means Attention Deficit Disorder. No offense intended towards those who suffer from ADD, but there's a reason I'm referencing it.)

It appears my life has settled into a comfortable groove...nothing too out of the ordinary has happened recently. I know that is good because nothing bad has happened, and I want to keep that negativity out of my life. But is it too much to ask for a significant positive event?

I know there will be one eventually, but still, my mind is craving new input. New sensory experiences. New positive feelings. At the moment it just feels like my life is at a standstill. Like I'm stuck in second gear or something like that. There doesn't seem to be forward momentum going for me. I just know there's got to be more to life than this.

Maybe I'm just being greedy, craving more of a bang out of my life...I know I'm one person who freaks out when it comes to change, but can't I have a good change come my way soon? Something to shake up my everyday routine in a positive way?

It's like right now, I'm...spiritually bored.

Maybe there is something I can do to help myself, but I don't know what that is...perhaps that is why I feel stuck, not knowing what to do to lift myself out of this rut.

But what can I do? I don't know where to begin...

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Keeping This Up

As I write this right now, I feel incredibly thankful to God(s). Although I am under the weather at present with some kind of mild virus or other, I still feel so much more emotionally uplifted than before. I guess it really is all in the breath as the Art of Living teaches us.

There is a small part of me, though, that is afraid this might not last - I know as far as emotional satisfaction and stability it really is all in the mind. And as for training the mind, that is where the Sudarshan Kriya that I learned from the Art of Living comes in. The point I'm getting at, though, is how to maintain a discipline where I keep doing it.

I know meditation is an art that one has to want to do; I found it to be literally impossible to force oneself to meditate. So how do I keep that want going? I try to keep doing it regularly, but I admit some days it just seems more trouble than it's worth. My mind knows it's important, but yet it just doesn't want to cooperate on certain days.

Maybe one reason for this is that I get bored easily. Perhaps I need to change and vary it some days, but how? I still want to do it right, so how do I keep things interesting while still honoring the traditions I follow?

If the audience has any advice, please share it. :)